DETACHED: TO ALL THE LIES I LOVED BEFORE

Written on October 19, 2020 at 3:30pm

You're fat
you're ugly
you eat too much
you need me
I need you
you're smart
you're going to be a doctor
and stay busy
and pure
and nice
and wait until marriage
because sex is dirty
and nasty
and makes babies
and they're always hungry
like you were 
and you can't bring one here
and this is your daddy
No SIKE
he is
and he used to beat me
until I was pregnant
then he left
you
and me
but he sent a check
and he can't sleep at night
knowing he's got a baby
but you're okay
you'll be fine
you're smart
you'll go far
if you shoot for the moon
and always land among the stars
your mama's a ho'
but you're strong
stay strong
just like your big thighs
keep kicking
keep swimming
because
there's plenty fish in the sea
and you're still beautiful
but beauty is only skin deep
you're not big
you're thick
I like thick girls
come chill with me
I'll never leave
please don't leave me
but you should
because I'm not ready
and you're crazy
she's just a friend
she kissed me
why are you acting so crazy?
you deserve better
I'm sorry
we can just be friends
Thank you
I love you
if you let me touch you
I'll hug you
if you don't tell
I'll kiss you
when no one sees
I'll miss you
until I don't
I'll hunt you
until the end of time
I'll ask about you
when it's too late
I promise...

I'll never lie to you.